“YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT THE CLICHE ADVICE ABOUT TIME HEALING YOUR WOUNDS ISN'T NECESSARILY TRUE. TIME DOESN'T HEAL ALL WOUNDS, BUT JESUS DOES. TIME DOESN'T ALWAYS HEAL WOUNDS, BUT TRUTH DOES. GOD ALWAYS USES OUR TIMES OF BROKENNESS, VULNERABILITY, AND WEAKNESS TO BENEFIT US AND GLORIFY HIMSELF. DON’T YOU TRUST THAT HE IS MORE THAN CAPABLE OF HEALING YOU—THAT HE IS EAGER TO FILL THE EMPTINESS THAT HAS CARVED ITSELF WITHIN YOU?” - LB, A FEW THINGS ABOUT LOVE
MATTERS OF THE HEART ARE A VERY SERIOUS BUSINESS THAT TOO MANY PEOPLE INVEST IN. I NEVER EXPERIENCED THIS KIND OF TORTURE AND PAIN. IT IS INDESCRIBABLE AND UNCONTAINABLE. IT IS LIKE A DEEP WOUND. IT WILL NOT HEAL OVERNIGHT. THIS REALITY IN MY LIFE HAS LEFT A HOLE IN MY HEART—EMPTINESS THAT I ONCE PRAYED THAT I WILL NEVER EVER FEEL AGAIN.
I SPOKE WITH SEVERAL OF MY ACCOUNTABILITY FRIENDS AND THEY ALL HAVE THE SAME THING TO SAY – “RECOGNIZE THE PAIN AND ADMIT THAT YOU ARE NOT OKAY, ANA.”
I ADMIT, A DAY AFTER SHE BROKE UP WITH ME, I IGNORED THE PAIN AND THINK IT WILL GO AWAY. I TRIED TO PUSH THE HURT AWAY BUT I CAN’T. THIS SUPPRESSING HURT IS MAKING ME WORSE. IT KILLS ME EVERY SINGLE DAY. UNTIL NOW, I HAVE THIS MINDSET THAT I CAN TAKE CARE OF IT BY MYSELF AND HIBERNATE OR WITHDRAW. LATELY, I LIVE MY LIFE DOING THE THINGS I ENJOY BUT I AM STILL IMPRISONED.
JUST A WHILE AGO, I WAS DELETING MY WORDPRESS ACCOUNT WHEN MY MIND FILLS UP WITH HER MEMORIES. AND I STARTED TO CRY. I AM STILL HURTING. I WANT HER BACK BUT I KNOW SHE WILL NEVER EVER CHOOSE ME OVER THE WOMAN SHE IS WITH NOW FOR 7 YEARS. THEN I CRIED TO GOD THEN HE SHOWED ME THIS VERSE,
AND THAT LEAVES ME DUMBFOUNDED.
I KNOW GOD WILL HEAL ALL BROKEN HEARTS. HE PROMISED THAT IN MATTHEW 11:28.
WE WILL SEE WHERE THIS PAIN LEADS ME.
SO LONG FOR NOW. UNTIL MY NEXT POST.
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MATTERS OF THE HEART ARE A VERY SERIOUS BUSINESS THAT TOO MANY PEOPLE INVEST IN. I NEVER EXPERIENCED THIS KIND OF TORTURE AND PAIN. IT IS INDESCRIBABLE AND UNCONTAINABLE. IT IS LIKE A DEEP WOUND. IT WILL NOT HEAL OVERNIGHT. THIS REALITY IN MY LIFE HAS LEFT A HOLE IN MY HEART—EMPTINESS THAT I ONCE PRAYED THAT I WILL NEVER EVER FEEL AGAIN.
I SPOKE WITH SEVERAL OF MY ACCOUNTABILITY FRIENDS AND THEY ALL HAVE THE SAME THING TO SAY – “RECOGNIZE THE PAIN AND ADMIT THAT YOU ARE NOT OKAY, ANA.”
I ADMIT, A DAY AFTER SHE BROKE UP WITH ME, I IGNORED THE PAIN AND THINK IT WILL GO AWAY. I TRIED TO PUSH THE HURT AWAY BUT I CAN’T. THIS SUPPRESSING HURT IS MAKING ME WORSE. IT KILLS ME EVERY SINGLE DAY. UNTIL NOW, I HAVE THIS MINDSET THAT I CAN TAKE CARE OF IT BY MYSELF AND HIBERNATE OR WITHDRAW. LATELY, I LIVE MY LIFE DOING THE THINGS I ENJOY BUT I AM STILL IMPRISONED.
JUST A WHILE AGO, I WAS DELETING MY WORDPRESS ACCOUNT WHEN MY MIND FILLS UP WITH HER MEMORIES. AND I STARTED TO CRY. I AM STILL HURTING. I WANT HER BACK BUT I KNOW SHE WILL NEVER EVER CHOOSE ME OVER THE WOMAN SHE IS WITH NOW FOR 7 YEARS. THEN I CRIED TO GOD THEN HE SHOWED ME THIS VERSE,
AND THAT LEAVES ME DUMBFOUNDED.
I KNOW GOD WILL HEAL ALL BROKEN HEARTS. HE PROMISED THAT IN MATTHEW 11:28.
WE WILL SEE WHERE THIS PAIN LEADS ME.
SO LONG FOR NOW. UNTIL MY NEXT POST.
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