MIBF SEASON! THIS WAS MY SECOND TIME TO EXPERIENCE THE MIBF FEVER! SEPTEMBER 20, SATURDAY, HAS BEEN A HAPPY EVENT-FILLED WEEKEND FOR ME. I BROUGHT MY SISTER AND NIECE TO THE FAIR. EVEN THOUGH I WAS SO FRIGGING HELL BROKE BECAUSE I GOT VERY ILL FEW DAYS BEFORE THE MIBF WEEK, I WAS STILL ABLE TO GO TO THE FAIR BY GOD’S GRACE. THANK YOU JESUS! I EVEN CONTACTED ALL MY FRIENDS AND PEOPLE WHO OWE ME A DECENT AMOUNT OF MONEY HOWEVER I HAVE NOT GOT ANY RESPONSE FROM THEM. WHEW! LESSON LEARNED: NEVER LOAN PEOPLE MONEY IF YOU AREN'T PREPARED TO NEVER BE PAID BACK.
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When I first listened to The Moffatts’ Who Do You Love after a long time, I was disconcerted by what I thought I heard. I am a fan of The Moffatts since 1997. I already knew the song and I used to sing it before during high school days.
Yesterday, after one listen, the only thing I thought I knew for sure was that I didn't much like it because it hit me right in the heart like a hard arrow. The pain is STILL surreal. I am still hurting. Here are the lyrics of the first part. Here we are You tell me I'm the only one Who makes you feel love again There you go I see you watching HER When you don't think I know Should I let you go? So who's it gonna be Is it HER or me? I have tried to live my life thinking she will never come back since she never loved me. But no one can beat the way she makes me feel. Being around her lifts me up. She makes me feel like I couldn't be anyone better but the person I am when I am with her. Here is my favorite part of the song. Am I the one who can make you fly up above Is it me who can take you higher than you're dreaming of Now who do you love? Who do you love? Quite melancholic. When things start to get serious, the woman I am with, head over heels in-love with, left me. She was my heaven - I see my whole life with her. This is a slap on my face. I’ll just be honest. I haven’t moved on. I guess she already moved on now. I believe she seems to be doing just fine. I guess it was easy for her to move on, forget me and erase me in her memory and life since the woman she is with now is willing and will do everything to win her heart and love back. Lucky you, Dhang. So why am I stuck in this rut? “YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT THE CLICHE ADVICE ABOUT TIME HEALING YOUR WOUNDS ISN'T NECESSARILY TRUE. TIME DOESN'T HEAL ALL WOUNDS, BUT JESUS DOES. TIME DOESN'T ALWAYS HEAL WOUNDS, BUT TRUTH DOES. GOD ALWAYS USES OUR TIMES OF BROKENNESS, VULNERABILITY, AND WEAKNESS TO BENEFIT US AND GLORIFY HIMSELF. DON’T YOU TRUST THAT HE IS MORE THAN CAPABLE OF HEALING YOU—THAT HE IS EAGER TO FILL THE EMPTINESS THAT HAS CARVED ITSELF WITHIN YOU?” - LB, A FEW THINGS ABOUT LOVE MATTERS OF THE HEART ARE A VERY SERIOUS BUSINESS THAT TOO MANY PEOPLE INVEST IN. I NEVER EXPERIENCED THIS KIND OF TORTURE AND PAIN. IT IS INDESCRIBABLE AND UNCONTAINABLE. IT IS LIKE A DEEP WOUND. IT WILL NOT HEAL OVERNIGHT. THIS REALITY IN MY LIFE HAS LEFT A HOLE IN MY HEART—EMPTINESS THAT I ONCE PRAYED THAT I WILL NEVER EVER FEEL AGAIN. I SPOKE WITH SEVERAL OF MY ACCOUNTABILITY FRIENDS AND THEY ALL HAVE THE SAME THING TO SAY – “RECOGNIZE THE PAIN AND ADMIT THAT YOU ARE NOT OKAY, ANA.” I ADMIT, A DAY AFTER SHE BROKE UP WITH ME, I IGNORED THE PAIN AND THINK IT WILL GO AWAY. I TRIED TO PUSH THE HURT AWAY BUT I CAN’T. THIS SUPPRESSING HURT IS MAKING ME WORSE. IT KILLS ME EVERY SINGLE DAY. UNTIL NOW, I HAVE THIS MINDSET THAT I CAN TAKE CARE OF IT BY MYSELF AND HIBERNATE OR WITHDRAW. LATELY, I LIVE MY LIFE DOING THE THINGS I ENJOY BUT I AM STILL IMPRISONED. JUST A WHILE AGO, I WAS DELETING MY WORDPRESS ACCOUNT WHEN MY MIND FILLS UP WITH HER MEMORIES. AND I STARTED TO CRY. I AM STILL HURTING. I WANT HER BACK BUT I KNOW SHE WILL NEVER EVER CHOOSE ME OVER THE WOMAN SHE IS WITH NOW FOR 7 YEARS. THEN I CRIED TO GOD THEN HE SHOWED ME THIS VERSE, AND THAT LEAVES ME DUMBFOUNDED. I KNOW GOD WILL HEAL ALL BROKEN HEARTS. HE PROMISED THAT IN MATTHEW 11:28. WE WILL SEE WHERE THIS PAIN LEADS ME. SO LONG FOR NOW. UNTIL MY NEXT POST. ...>_<... IN THE SPRING OF 1519, CAPTAIN HERNÁN CORTÉS AND HIS SPANISH FLEET LANDED ON VERACRUZ WITH A MISSION OF CONQUEST ON HIS MIND. WHEN HARD-SHIPS AND FEAR BEGAN TO GRIP HIS TINY 600 FORCE (500 SOLDIERS AND 100 SAILORS) AND THOUGHTS OF TURNING BACK BEGAN TO GROW, CORTÉS GAVE THE COMMAND TO “BURN THE SHIPS!” IN CORTÉS MIND THEY HAD PASSED THE POINT OF NO RETURN AND “THERE WILL BE NO TURNING OR GOING BACK, WE WILL ENDURE, WE’RE HERE TO STAY, IN FOR THE LONG-HAUL, AS LONG AS IT TAKES UNTIL COMPLETE CONQUEST TAKES PLACE OR WE DIE TRYING MEN.” WHY DID THEY WIN? THEIR SHIPS WERE BURNED. THEY HAD NO ESCAPE. THEY HAD NO WAY TO GET BACK. THIS WAS DO OR DIE, BUT ONE THING WAS FOR SURE. THEY WOULD NOT QUIT. THEY WOULD ENDURE! “BURN THE SHIPS, WE’RE HERE TO STAY, THERE’S NO WAY WE COULD GO BACK, NOW THAT WE'VE COME THIS FAR BY FAITH, BURN THE SHIPS, WE'VE PASSED THE POINT OF NO RETURN, OUR LIFE IS HERE, SO LET THE SHIPS BURN.” —STEVEN CURTIS CHAPMAN AS A CHRISTIAN – DAUGHTERS AND SONS OF THE MOST HOLY ONE, THIS IS THE LEVEL OF MOTIVATION AND COMMITMENT WE MUST HAVE. BY GOD’S GRACE, WE ARE BEING CHANGED DAILY AND BECOMING MORE AND MORE LIKE JESUS AS WE TURN AWAY FROM OUR OLD LIFE OF SIN AND CHOOSE TO LIVE A LIFE OF GRACE. BROTHERS AND SISTERS, YOU CAN HAVE VICTORY OVER TEMPTATION. BURN YOUR SHIPS OF SEXUAL IMMORALITY, IMPURITY, LUSTFUL PLEASURES, IDOLATRY, JEALOUSY, ENVY AND OTHER SINS LIKE THESE. BEGIN EACH DAY DECLARING WAR AGAINST TEMPTATION OR YOUR SHIPS. BURY YOURSELF WITH SPIRITUAL ACTIVITIES LIKE PRAYER, BIBLE READING, GIVING OR FASTING. USE ONLY SPIRITUAL WEAPONS AGAINST YOUR OWN SHIPS. FEED YOUR SPIRIT WITH SCRIPTURE. IMITATE WHAT CAPTAIN HERNÁN CORTÉS AND HIS SPANISH FLEET DID. THEY BURN THEIR SHIPS. NO TURNING BACK. DECIDE TO SAY NO TO YOUR SINS AND TO TEMPTATIONS. CHOOSE TO FOLLOW JESUS. THIS IS REALLY A STORY ABOUT COMMITMENT. COMMITMENT IS THE FOUNDATION OF SUCCESS. NOT A SINGLE ACCOMPLISHMENT IS EVER ACHIEVED WITHOUT IT. LETS USE THE STORY OF CORTES AND HIS SHIPS TO ILLUSTRATE THE TRUTH OF THE RADICAL COMMITMENT CHRIST CALLS US TO. LET US ALL KEEP OUR HEARTS HAPPY IN GOD’S HOLY PRESENCE. HI.
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