JEALOUSY AND ENVY ARE EMOTIONS WE ALL FEEL FROM TIME TO TIME. BUT IF THEY ARE ALLOWED TO BECOME DOMINANT IN OUR LIVES, THEY DELAY OUR GROWTH TO SPIRITUAL MATURITY. ENVY IS DEFINED AS “A FEELING OF DISCONTENT AND RESENTMENT AROUSED BY ANOTHER’S DESIRABLE POSSESSIONS OR QUALITIES, ACCOMPANIED BY A STRONG DESIRE TO HAVE THEM FOR ONESELF.”
SCRIPTURE REMINDS US, “PEACE OF MIND MAKES THE BODY HEALTHY, BUT JEALOUSY IS LIKE A CANCER” (PROVERBS 14:30). I DON’T KNOW ABOUT YOU, BUT SOMETIMES IT’S HARD TO UNDERSTAND WHY GOD DOESN’T ALLOW THINGS TO HAPPEN STRAIGHTAWAY.
PINES AND ADAM WERE MY CLASSMATES FROM TRAINING FOR VICTORY WAY BACK IN 2011. HERE IS THE PHOTO OF US. PINES WAS MY BEST BUDDY THAT TIME. ADAM WAS A FAMILIAR FACE AND I THOUGHT HE WAS ONE OF OUR CHURCH’S CAMPUS MISSIONARIES. THEY WERE MY FRIENDS UNTIL NOW. I AM BLESSED TO HAVE THEM AS MY FRIENDS.
LIKE MANY OTHER EMOTIONS, ENVY IS A SYMPTOM OF UNDERLYING ISSUES THAT NEED TO BE RESOLVED. HARBORING ENVY KEEPS US FROM SEEKING AND TRUSTING GOD AND WORST, IT BLOCKS US FROM SEEING THE BLESSINGS OF GOD.
FEW WEEKS AGO, ENVY ROOTED IN MY HEART. I SAW PINES AND ADAM’S ACHIEVEMENTS, YEARS AFTER WE GRADUATED. PINES IS NOW VERY ACTIVE IN PREACHING GOD’S WORD IN VICTORY BATANGAS. SHE BECAME A GOOD LEADER. SHE EVEN WENT FOR A 10 DAYS MISSION, WHICH BY THE WAY I WANT TO EXPERIENCE TOO. ADAM BECAME MORE A MIGHTY MAN OF GOD. HE STILL CONTINUES TO SHARE GOD’S WORD THROUGH HIS BLOG. NOT SO SURE, BUT I THINK HE WILL GO TO THE NATION AND REACH OUT TO THE LOST.
I FEEL ENVIOUS. WE WENT TO THE SAME CLASS IN THE SAME YEAR BUT I WAS LEFT OUT. THEY ALREADY SAVED A HUNDRED OF SOULS NOW. I WAS SO DEPRESSED AND BLAMING MYSELF FOR WHAT HAPPENED TO ME. THEN TWO AMAZING THINGS HAPPENED.
I SHARED MY SENTIMENTS TO MY VICTORY SMALL GROUP BOTH IN VICTORY FORT AND MAKATI AND I RECEIVED A LOT OF RESPONSES BUT KC’S MESSAGE WAS SOMETHING. HERE IS HER TEXT MESSAGE:
HI ATE ANA :) Y SAD? U’V BEEN DOING GREAT THIS PAST FEW WEEKS. U’V BEEN CHANGING A LOT! IN FACT, I ENVY YOU.. THE WAY YOU SEE THINGS, THE WAY YOU REACT, DEAL OR RESPONSE ON WHAT’S HAPPENING IN UR LIFE… CIRCUMSTANCES AND TRIALS UR FACING. ANG GALING MO KASI KADA MAGSHSHARE KA SA AMIN, RAMDAM KO UNG INCREASING FAITH MO, YUNG GOD’S GRACE.. :))
I LIKE THE WAY YOU SEE THINGS. YOU SEE IT POSITIVELY PALAGE. UR LEARNING EVERY TIME MAY NAEENCOUNTER KANG TRIALS. :) AND EVEN NAKAKADEPRESS UN SITUATION, UR STILL ABLE TO SMILE.
LAHAT NAMAN TAYO MAY KANYA KANYANG PINAGDADAANAN RIGHT NOW. :)NORMAL SIGURO NA MAFEEL MO YAN. WAG MO LANG PAGSTAYIN COZ IT WILL BRING NOTHING ON YOU AND DEMONS WILL WIN PAG NAGPADALA KA. IPAGPRAY MO LANG AND PANGHAWAKAN UNG PROMISES NIYA! :) *BIG WARM HUG TIGHT!*
EVERY THING HAPPENS FOR A REASON! :) MAY PLANO SIYA SAYO. ;) SA KINGDOM NI GOD LAHAT TAYO PANTAY PANTAY :) WALANG LABIS, WALANG KULANG ANG PAGMAMAHAL NIYA SA ATIN. IKAW AY NANDIYAN SA KUNG ANO KA NGAYON, BE THANKFUL.. KASI MERON IBA, NI HINDI SYA NAKIKILALA.. UR LUCKY ENOUGH ATE ANA! :*
AFTER READING KC’S TEXT MESSAGE, TEARS ROLL DOWN MY FACE AND I STARTED PRAYING. I ASKED GOD FOR FORGIVENESS. THE BIBLE TELLS US THAT ENVY IS A PRODUCT OF OUR SINFUL HUMAN NATURE. GOD IMPRESSED IN MY HEART THAT HE HAVE A GOOD AND PERFECT FOR EACH AND EVERY ONE OF US. HE PROMISED THAT. IT WAS WRITTEN IN THE BIBLE.
I WOULD LOVE TO GO SHARE THE GOSPEL AND ADVANCE GOD’S KINGDOM BY GOING ON A MISSION THE WAY MY FRIENDS, PINES AND ADAM, DID. I’VE EVEN TRIED TO AND BY GOD’S GRACE I WAS ABLE TO SAVE ONE SOUL – NHING, ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS. BUT I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO REACH PINES AND ADAMS’ ACHIEVEMENTS. NOT NOW. NOT YET. I NEED TO IMMERSE MYSELF IN GOD’S PRESENCE AND DELIGHT IN HIM. I NEED TO RELIGHT THE FIRE IN MY HEART FOR HIM. SOON. I KNOW IT WILL HAPPEN SOON. SO, I HAVE A CHOICE: I CAN RESENT PINES AND ADAM’S SUCCESS WHEN I COMPARE IT WITH MY FAILURE, OR I CAN ACKNOWLEDGE THEIR SKILLS AND BE AMAZE ON HOW GOD’S BLESSED THEM.
GOD HAS PROMISED TO GIVE US THE DESIRES OF YOUR HEART, BUT IT MAY TAKE A WHILE FOR THOSE DESIRES TO COME TO FRUITION. IT WAS WRITTEN IN PSALM 37 AND IT SAYS,
"TRUST IN THE LORD AND DO GOOD; LIVE IN THE LAND AND BE SAFE. SEEK YOUR HAPPINESS IN THE LORD, AND HE WILL GIVE YOU YOUR HEART’S DESIRE. GIVE YOURSELF TO THE LORD; TRUST IN HIM, AND HE WILL HELP YOU; HE WILL MAKE YOUR RIGHTEOUSNESS SHINE LIKE THE NOONDAY SUN."
GET RID OF ANY FORMS OF ENVY TO EXPERIENCE JOY AND CONTENTMENT. HAVE FAITH THAT JESUS BRINGS BLESSINGS THAT WILL BLOSSOM BEAUTIFULLY AND FRAGRANTLY IN OUR LIVES IN HIS PERFECT TIME.